Sunday, August 16, 2009

On the edge.......

I really feel lately as if I am losing my freakin mind! Today was not the best of days in the Simpson household. We had a very busy weekend and you all know from previous posts, that I am plain worn out these days..so overbooking myself and my family doesn't really seem to make much sense does it? We had to go to church today b/c our Pastor is leaving after 18 years and of course we wanted to go there to see him off. What I DID not want to do however, if go to the PIG roast in 95 degree heat. I told Jeff we should have just skipped that since and no offense to any fellow church readers out there, but they are just plain irritating if you have small children and you add to that heat and being 35 weeks pregnant and you just about want to shoot yourself:) We then brought our nephew Derek back here to play with Matthew which was actually the best idea we had all day. Then, later in the evening Caroline decides to draw with crayon all over out living room carpet! I kinda of lost my temper with more than a few family members and ended up in tears on the living room floor, RESOLVE in one hand and tissues in the other. Its just that I already feel so overwhelmed that I truly can't imagine an infant in this crazy world of ours..actually I can imagine it..that is what is scaring the crap out of me. Plus,I know that for lack of time,etc that I won't be able to feed the spiritual needs of me as much either!! HELP!!!

2 comments:

Sarah said...

In 20 years, you're going to be the one with all of the good stories! Baby Emma, Molly, or whatever you name her, may be the easiest baby ever. God obviously knows you can handle it!

Jamie and Heather said...

I hear about not wanting to stay for the pig roast. Faith did okay during the video part of the farewell but was done after that. I told Jamie I don't want to stay if we can't watch it. Have a good cry though Sue. It's totally acceptable and allowed and I think even losing it with family. I'll pray you have a smooth week this week.