Wednesday, June 27, 2007

The worst mom in the world

Ok, I am feeling a little neurotic and a little like a failure. I love my children so much! I am so blessed! But, I will whole heartedly admit that my son can drive me bonkers!! I feel so bad about this but it is true. I have never met anyone who can get under my skin the way he can. Its like he knows exactly what to do to make me insane! I go to bed every morning thinking.." I will be patient, I will play more, I will have the tv on less" and somedays, it happens but on others..none of the above happen. Yesterday was so awesome and then today..yucky! Then I think of others who have lost children or who have sick kids and I feel so horrible like I am taking mine for granted!

A few posts ago I wrote about needing to be in God's word more and I have fully admit here and now to not having done this! So, I am recommitting to this! I am SURE this would alleviate alot of my issues! I am sure if God could read this blog he would say..."Susan, Susan, Susan...will you EVER Learn?"

And I wonder where Matthew gets his stubborn, glutton for punishment personality from?:)

If your reading this and are local friends...please do me a favor and help me stay accountable with this...ask me what I have read in my Bible a week from now. Fellow blog buddies..feel free to hold me accountable via comments!



Anonymous said...

Hi!! My name is Jessica...I have four boys, and I have to say that I totally agree with you about the "driving me crazy" days. I also am so blessed, but a lot of days I feel like I am going to lose it. I will be praying for patience and accountability for you with your son. He is adorable by the way (so is your daughter). Hang in there!! :)

I found your blog through my friend Rhonda's. I also commented on your "what if we all met" entry!! :)

Tualatin, Oregon

Anonymous said...


I came across your blog while blog-hopping one day and it's funny 'cause my blog-friend Jessica commented before I ever did and I have a link to your blog on my blog! Anyway, I love your writing and I relate to so much of what you say. I love being real and love finding others to be real with.

Glad to have found your blog!

Susan said...

I am blown away right now...I have my own stalkers:) That is like winning an award or something in blogland right..its not a good blog if your not stalked!! Thanks Jessica and Rhonda..I have added you to my daily "blog travels!"


Anonymous said...

When Wes & I read through the bible, it really helped me when he would ask, "So what day are you on." I think if it weren't for that accountability factor I would have given up in July when I was so far behind. But I kept with it and finished by the end of the year.


Holly said...

I feel for you! Jaden does the same to me, and I know it's bc he has MY personality. I too need to stay more in the Word. I really should start up that Bible in a yr thing again.