Tuesday, December 29, 2009

10 for 2010

New Year's Resolutions suck!! I hate them and hardly ever make or keep them! But, this year, I am determined to make some that would make some MEANIGFUL differences in my life. So, here they are. I am picking ten for the year 2010 and I figure that will give me better odds at accomplishing at least one right:)

10.To not scream at my kids
9. To only have the t.v on for an hour a day
8. To read the Bible each day for a minimum of twenty minutes
7. To speak to my husband lovingly
6. To play with my kids, get down on the floor and play!!
5. To not eat chocolate everyday!
4. To make it to the gym at least 3 days a week
3. To finish my bible study!
2. To make time for "intimacy":))) I know your all laughing at this one but Jeff's having the "wires" cut soon so no more risks of baby Simpsons:)
1. To keep a journal again!
How about you all....what are your goals for 2010?? I miss comments!!
As for ringing in 2010..it will be Matthew and I again, heading to Grand Rapids to hang out with some good friends and their kids. Jeff has volunteered to hang out back here with "the girls". Christmas decor is nearly down and I am geared up for a great, pregnancy free year:)
Happy New Year!!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Breath of Heaven

I have been thinking alot about that song. Probably because I am obsessed with Amy Grant's Christmas cd!! Anyways, the lyrics have always made me weepy but this year in particular I can't get through it without being reduced to complete mush! The words, which I copied here...
I have traveled
Many moonless night
Cold and Weary
With a babe inside
And I wonder
What I've done
Holy Father
You have come
Chosen me now
To carry your son

I am waiting
in a silent prayer
I am frightened
by the load i bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone
Be with me now
Be with me now

Breath of Heaven
Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of Heaven

Breath of Heaven
Lighten my darkness
Pour over me, your holyness
For your holy Breath of Heaven

Do you wonder
As you watch my face
If a wiser one, should of had my place
But I offer-all I am
For the mercy-of your plan
Help me be strong
Help me be
Help me

just get me as I think about those people I know that have lost their chidren. In particular I think of how as Christian moms, they chose their faith to get them through. The words, "but I offer all I am, for the mercy of your plan" and think of how Mary had to put all of her trust in God to get through the circumstances leading up to the birth of Christ. But, in light of knowing mothers who have lost children who, in Jaime's case live in constant fear of losing their child, that Mary at the time of Christ's birth had no idea that God's plan also included Him dying a horrific death on the cross.
The words, "Be with me now" also really resonate with me. When Jaime gave her testimony the week of the Thanksgiving, she shared that last year, before she was even pregnant with Sam, she remembers to specifically "feel" God. She then shared that throughout the events of this past year, in all the pain and bad times, she has been so very blessed to truly FEEL God! Cool!
As I read ove this post, I realize its a little scattered..but it was on my mind!
Wishing you a very Merry Christmas blog world!