Tuesday, February 28, 2006

progesterone and craziness

Hello all,
Well, I think I am going crazy! I am on oral progesterone and I think its really messing with me! I feel so much more irritable since I have been on it! Maybe its just pregnancy hormones in general, YUCK! What bums me out the most is I feel like my patience with Matthew has gotten shorter. Like tonight, I had just gotten him down when Jeff came home and screamed my name up the stairs, so much for that!! IT TOOK ME 2 hours to get him back to sleep. He never does that! In fact, I don't know of one day in his little life that he has done that! I was so annoyed! I don't like feeling like that, I have never felt like that!! Well, its only till 12 weeks! I can make it! I can do all things throught Christ who strengthens me! :) Besides that, not much is new !Matthew is so cute, when he isn't boycotting sleeping, what a blessing children are! I know this and have always done such a good job in just enjoying him. Because we never know what tommorrow will bring and I don't want to regret one moment with that little boy! I need to spend more concentrated time each day in the Word and in prayer! With Lent beginning tommorrow, I am going to make that my Lenten promise, to just soak up the Word of GOd daily and spend time talking with God!

Happy Ash Wednesday!


Friday, February 24, 2006

a tiny heartbeat

Well, my pregnancies never cease to amaze me at how truly powerful and awesome our God is! I had problems at the beginning of Matthew's pregnancy, with low progesterone and the actually thought Matthew would never be. That is mostly why we named him Matthew, gift from God. So, when I found out I was pregnant this time, I immediately had my blood drawn and again my progesterone was low. For those of you who are like, "What is progesterone for?" Well, it basically feeds the fetus until the placenta does, pretty essential. Actually this time, it was triple what is was with Matthew, but still low for science dependant Dr's out there. THen , yesterday I had some mild spotting and I had to get an ultrasound. I hate them!! They so stress me out! Jeff came with me, actually it was in his office building. The ultrasound tech was a guy, so nice and so comforting. I was asking him a million questions and he was like, " How do you know this much? I was like , "The joys of GOOGLE!" :) Anyways, we then saw our new little person with a strong little heartbeat!! I was so happy! I had been constantly praying to let GOd have it and not stress unneccesarily, which mostly worked! I have been able to share my testimony with how God brought us Matthew, despite what science or reason would have predicted, some people even cried when I told them about why we chose Matthew's name, all the honor and glory be God's! I have been so impressed with Jeff and where is faith is with all of this. He has said all along that everything would be fine and to just trust that, that we had been here before and it all worked out so why wouldn't it now?! Got to love that guy.
Matthew and I had fun in FL! He was so cute in the pool ,loved it! We took him to the ENT today and looks like that poor bubbie has to get tubes!! Hopefully it will help with the ear infections!


Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Giving it to GOD

Hello again,its me from FL! We're getting ready to go to dinner, but I was checking my email while grandma plays with Matthew. I was laying in the sun today, thinking about how our lives will change with the new baby and then started thinking, ok, maybe worrying a little. Worrying about what? Well,first and foremost that this child would be healthy, that we can squeeze some extra buck out of our already tight budget for the stuff it will need, that my pregnancy will be uneventful, that no harm would ever come to either Matthew or this child....I was listening to Coldplay's song , "FIX YOU" and am particularly touched by the lyrics, "Tears streaming, down your face,when you lose something you can not replace" and it makes me think of how sometimes I feel when I worry. That its time wasted and not putting faith into action, in fact not having faith at all. I continually pray, that I can give things to GOD and leave them there,not continuining to take them back again and again. That is my prayer for my life and my children's lives, that they Trust God wholly!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Sunny, cold?? Florida

Hello from Naples, Florida. It has been a very cold week thus far. We are just hanging out with my parents. Tommorrow is suppose to be warmer so hopefully we will get some sun !! Have a good, cold week!!

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Good News

Well, the newest Simpson baby is on his or her way! Praise God! I went early this morning for another blood test and had to wait all day....ahhhh and at 3pm found out that my hcg doubled and my progesterone is up! I will be on oral progesterone until the end of the first trimester, but its all looking great right now. I do have to change doctors though, our insurance is not covering them anymore! I am so happy, even though I have to admit I am still really shocked! A new little guy or girl to love up!!


Wednesday, February 08, 2006

God's Will

Well, just when you think you have it all planned, God really shows you who is in control. I am pregnant, quite unexpectedly, but happily. Unfortunately, I am also having the same problems with progesterone and hcg like with Matthew's pregnancy. I was told by my last OB that Matthew was not a viable pregnancy due to my numbers early on. So, when I found out about this beautiful surprise, I called for a blood test. I was hoping and praying that I wouldn't have to go through this all again but today when the nurse called with the news, my heart sunk! But, only momentarily, when I realized that what was I thinking....I had my little beautiful Matthew, who for all "medical reasons" shouldn't be here!! I have to believe that God will sustain this pregnancy if that is HIS will. I am so grateful for all the growth I have had through BSF, church and our wonderful friends here, I really feel pretty peaceful about it all, no matter what the outcome. I know that HE is perfectly knitting together this little being and that we will have another little medical marvel on our hands. In addition to all these thoughts, I spent all day just rocking my little buddy, cuddling and playing with him and praying for God to make it all ok! I will let everyone know, whoever everyone is....its kind of weird never knowing who knows all your private business!


Friday, February 03, 2006


Well, I am contemplating going back to work. I am not sure what this will look like, but feel like its what we need to do to get ahead. I am praying that God would reveal to us what this will look like? Perhaps, taking care of a child here? Perhaps working outside the home, although putting Matthew into daycare isn't my first choice. Especially when I enjoy taking care of other people's kids. Matthew and I are heading to Florida to see my parents next Friday, that should be fun. I had the worse case of strep throat and was feeling so yucky, I haven't been that sick in a long time. I am feeling somewhat better although not completly 100% yet!